It’ basically the Dunning-Krugger curve - you’re well enough into the last part of it so you are well aware of how much there is to learn about it and how you will never know all of it, thus you don’t have and never will have the same kind of cocksure belief that “I know this shit” as somebody who knows just a bit but not yet enough to understand how much there is to know.
It’ basically the Dunning-Krugger curve - you’re well enough into the last part of it so you are well aware of how much there is to learn about it and how you will never know all of it, thus you don’t have and never will have the same kind of cocksure belief that “I know this shit” as somebody who knows just a bit but not yet enough to understand how much there is to know.
It’s all perfectly normal, IMHO.
The more you learn the less you know.
More precisely, the more you learn the more you are aware of all you have yet to learn.
You do know more after you’ve learned something, but that also includes the realisation it’s but a drop in an ocean of things still tomlearn.