Let’s just say you could… How much to go back 46 years?

Thank you!

Wait wait wait… It’s not?

BT reference as I live and breathe. I know what’s going on my playlist for the drive coming up.

Had this same experience when I visited London 20+ years ago. Turns out it was the opening of Parliament that brought out all the MP5s according to the staff at the hotel.

To reinforce this, if my kids school system went on strike I would be behind it 100%.

It would fucking suck for us, but educators deserve better and I want them to get it.

Don’t try to compare, our circumstances are different, but how we feel and how our situations impact us are just as valid as the other.

I hope you start to make the turn, I know how hard it is to get out of the depressive hole we often find ourselves in!

Thank you, I really appreciate it. There’s a LOT left out of the abusive conditions I lived in leading up to that, I was forced to sleep on the floor for a couple of years, forced to physically abuse myself for her amusement once I was well and truly broken. She used my kid as a pawn to manipulate and control me and it worked. She used my size to intimidate other people to get what she wanted. Burned down our home.

Cut me off from all of my friends and family.

I’m doing a LOT better these days, it’s been a few years now. Through therapy and giving myself space I uncovered memories of being sexually abused by a priest in my youth, which surely didn’t help, and the legal ramifications of that are still turning as we speak.

I’m still a broken human, but I’m a much better version of myself than I was a few years ago. I struggle, and fight the constant feeling that I should cease to exist, but as long as my kid needs me I have a thread holding me down.

I have the most amazing partner now, who has shown me what it is really like to be loved beyond being a parent. Something I never experienced until the last couple of years.

I’m writing a letter to my kid, that I will give her when they are much much older, outlining what those years were like. I know they can see the evil in their mom, but can’t name it yet. I haven’t said a word about it to them, and have no plans to until much much later or until they start to ask me about based on their observations.

I had intended to just say thank you, but … it feels good to let it out. Very very few people who know me have heard that much of the story. Thank you for hearing me. I truly appreciate it.

I don’t want to downplay the racism that is absolutely rampant in situations like these, they treated me, a very white guy in the same way. My now ex-wife and young child disappeared while I was in meetings. I came out of my home office, tried for a while to contact her, and after getting no reply called the police. Neither vehicle was gone, no notes, no indications of where they went.

They searched my house, my vehicles, even threatened to break into the camper we had to search it when I couldn’t immediately find the key.

It took them hours to locate them, and after wouldn’t tell me anything other than they were found.

Turns out she had taken my kid to her family’s cult compound, I immediately started court proceedings, then COVID helpfully came along to drag that out for years. I now have 50/50 custody, moved us all far away from that cult so she is less likely to take her back there, paid out the nose to get my ex to agree.

I did put my dog in the bathroom before they arrived, cause I know how that goes…

That isn’t it’s mode of action, at all.

It also doesn’t make you stupid, it is a disassociative anesthetic so you lose touch, to varying degrees, of your senses. At high enough doses even your sense of hearing becomes strange and I would bet if my doc gave me more it would fail almost completely. That’s not a place I want to go however.

Despite that, and appearing to be incapable of coordinated movement or speech, the mind is still active. Altered, yes. But active and intact. I am always aware of my partner in the room/bed with me, the dog checking things out, I just choose not to interact with them to continue exploring memories, or alien landscapes, or just turn off my mind, listen to the music, and let the drug work while the most fantastic and surreal images come and go.

I’m here today because of ketamine. Disinformation and pearl clutching threatens to reduce access to it, and could cost lives, speaking only of this one niche use.

Jesus…

I could totally see my idiot dog doing this.

I call mine a robot dick, thank you very much.

Thank you for typing this so I didn’t have to.

No question about that, and I find it equally irritating.

Shameful

And if someone gets the wrong perception so what? And what of the other x+ people seeing you do the right thing?

I’d 100% cunt punt someone trying to attack someone performing life saving procedures on someone in crisis

They always do.